Your worst Nightmare.

Tonight was a typical Friday night in Rexburg Idaho. The restaurants were crowded. The movies were sold out and everyone was having a wonderful time. So why was I not? Well driving through Rexburg brings nothing but what are now sweet memories of the previous Fall of '10. Walking through the isle in Walmart rushed all those tender feelings and over all memories of his sweet aroma through my body. I remember the way he would look at me as I would come around the corner into our kitchen. The way he held me that night under the stars. The tickling of his nose as he pressed it against by hair. I don't think I have ever been so happy in a relationship the way I was last October. I remember well how Excited he got when we watched my first pro football game together. I would give anything to go back to the way things should have been. Driving into Idaho Falls my mind echoed with his laughter, as we sung our favorite Christmas songs. Driving through the red colored trees as we entered the little town that will forever remember our first date. I can still recall the look on his blue eyes when I told him I would love to go to the haunted house. The way our eyes met as we carved pumpkins together that Sunday afternoon. What happened? Where did those feelings go? I'ts not the same, being here "without him." All I have left of him are those haunting memories of the most wonderful time of my life that replay in my mind over and over and over. But I must say this. I am where I am because of him. He showed me that I was worth more than I ever thought I could be. He proved to me that there are Prince charming out there and that I can have my "fairy tale" romance so thank you. FOR EVERYHTING YOU GAVE ME.

New Beginnings

Do you remember the day you realized you were changing in a good way? Maturing? Well last night I was laying in bed and it hit me that the diana that was here last fall is no longer. I realized that there is more to life than just being silly and saying silly things all the time. I'm tired of living the same life. I feel like I'm being held back and I'm ready to break from my shell. I'm like the butterfly ready to come out of the cocoon. I went to church today and this cute guy sat next to me and we got to talking and he was nice and everything... after the meetings we stuck around and mingled and all the boys were coming in and they were good looking but I realized that I just didn't care anymore about wainting to put myself out there. In the last year I've gotten hurt on a few occassions and I know thats part of learning and why we are here but it's no longer up to me. I will now leave it in the hands of my Heavenly Father and when the time is right then its right. In the mean time I've got BIG goals for myself and I'm really excited because this will me a wonderful semester for me. With someone or by myself I will come out of it a better person.

surviving in a rapidly changing world.

And this world just keeps "getting better." So let me tell you about Midland Texas. # of malls-1, # of movie theaters- 1, # of awesome stores- 3 if you want to include target. Yeah i know and it gets better number of cute well presented males available 0. This is where my story begins. Here are your options: drug addicts, alcohol drinkers, cigarette smokers, hicks, alligator boot wearers and of course the every once in a blue moon attractive nonmembers. I'm at the grocery store with with my mom and I'm totally not caring what I look like. After what I told you do you think I have someone to impress?? Well I'm walking down the cheese aisle and out of nowhere there he is... like walking into the candy store for the first time... he was wearing a white polo with khaki shorts, flip flops and a very beautiful white smile. Mmmm good teeth too. Everything you need tall, dark and handsome. He had dark longish hair. With a little bit of gel. Just enough to know he does his hair. I cant help but stare... looking around to see who was lucky enough to claim this prize. But to my shocking frown making sure my eyes weren't deceiving me it was a male, man, guy, hombre, dude. You get the point! this attractive guy came to the grocery store with another male and "the other man" was holding a little boy probably like 3. I'm not going to lie it was a little strange... Could this mean he was gay and it was his partner????? What a waist if this was the case. But to make myself feel less disturbed I will just pretend that they were brothers and the kid was his nephew. So in conclusion not only do we single gals have to look for a ring on his hand but we must watch out for the "partner" Reporting to you from Midland TX.

Take 3

Well here we go again!!!! So I haven't been to good with this whole blog thing and keeping up with it, but seeing as life has thrown soo many surprises at me this past year I thought, what the heck why not write about them seeing as I constantly find myself repeating the same old story. from now on I will just refer everyone interested in a 19 yrs life well here it is. So College is nothing but another path in finding out who you are and how wise you are in handling situations that come with roommates, teachers, cooking, friends and oh yes lets not forget what grown-ups like to call it as "LOVE" or what I like to refer to as "heartbreaks, chick-flicks, another box of tissues and lets not forget 15 extra minutes ill need at the gym after having " a few" spoons of cookie dough" yep that just about covers it. It all started out when I walked unto campus and saw a lake of good looking men, I knew that I was in for a ride of emotions and "what did I see in him" so lets begin with Jason, I can't believe I'm saying this but he was a ginger. yep me and a ginger, I know I know.... Ginger and I never belonged in the same sentence but I don't know it must have been the combination of too much snow and potatoes that made me attracted to him. Don't get me wrong he was a very sweet guy well lets just say that ended quiet fast, red heads and merengue didn't mix very well. At least I can cross that experiment off my to do list.

I've always known that I need to be grateful for the things I have and always give thanks, but i never hit me until today, as I found out a girl from back home has gone into a coma due to a cardiac arrest that was caused by a bad asthma attack. They don't know if she will be able to make it and she is only 24 and has been married for a year. Today I realized that just being here on earth, right here at BYU-I is a miracle. Being here breathing is a gift that my Father in heaven has granted me. As she awaits here between life and death, her family pleading for her life as they cling to their testimony in Christ and God, it really makes me grateful for what I have. You will never know when you are going to depart and return to our father's presence. I shall not take for granted the little things in life anymore. The beauty of what he has created for us to enjoy. The opportunities we have to meet new people each day. We are his hands here on earth and we need to get started in his work for the time will come quickly when he once again comes and gathers his flock. We need to not take for granted the wonderful people he has placed by our side. Enjoy the little moments in life. Take time to smile. The lord has given us trials in this life to grow and to have faith in him. It is only through our savior and his grace that we can overcome what may come.

losing your Wisdom

Well I got my wisdom teeth out on Friday!!!!

i was really scared and hardly got any sleep

the night before. I took some oral sedation one

hour before. So by the time I arrived i was

feeling really light headed and i remember

the nurse laying me down on the lets just

say not so comfortable chair. Then i can

recall she was trying different nose pieces

on and I remember not answering for a while

one felt better for a while. Then I was out cold.

I remember asking her if she had any kids, funny

thing is I'm not sure if it was real or in my dreams.

Then I remember waking up in the middle of the

procedure throwing up..... really strange. Then I

distinctly remember the nurse putting my seat belt

on for me and then i woke up on my mom's bed.

Later my mom told me on the way home I was

undressing myself. At a stop light I even tried

getting out of the car. "Tehehe" so I haven't

swollen up that bad, thank goodness. But who

know maybe tomorrow has something different

in store for me =))

Most exciting day of the summer!!

Ok so today the most amazing
thing happened!!! After I had
an enjoyable morning with Emma
and afternoon full of the latest
scoop here in good old Midland
with Michelle,I arrived home and
got ready for the Y. "Y.M.C.A" to
find a delicious afternoon snack.
My plan for today's fitness involved
machine work... toning, But as I
arrived I noticed Victoria, the ZUMBA
instructor was not teaching today but
the lovely "Friday Lady" (don't know her
name YET). She is way awesome=)))). So I
said to heck with machine work!! HELLO
ZUMBA!!! YES I will confess.... I am a
zumba addict!So I walked in and called
Andy and told her change of plans, it's
all about zumba today. Well I <3>
so of course on time as always, five a clock
hottie shows up =))) my heart almost missed
a beat. You can't miss a beat when your in
zumba! It's not good for your health. those
nice muscles of his, no TATOES insight,
ring on his finger, and still no name =(
(hence five-a-clock hottie) and no courage
to talk to him. But i did findout what he
drives and that he has a black lab in the
back of his truck. And I ONLY know this bc
I've seen him by his truck!! nothing else.
well any who as Andy and I were heading
to institute we happened to drive by this park.
(no need to know which one) and pop he was
there!!!! With his dog. so Andy and i decide
to take a "walk" bc we need to "cool down" ;-)
so we go the opposite direction he is going &
to my astonishment Andy decides she is going
to be cute and stop to talk to him so here it
goes......
ANDY- "Oh he's a cute dog can i pet him?
or is it a she??
five-a-clock hottie - "she".
ANDY- " whats here name?"
Five-a clock hottie - " Layla "
ANDY- " Oh she is all wet" hehe

so through that five sec conversation
i was standing there wanting to scream
its me!! its me. I'M the one who really
wants to talk to you . He was even cutter
up close. He has a really deep voice and I
just wanted to ask him to come to church with
me on Sunday. hahaha. So i can't wait to see
him from now on. =))))
That was my amazing day!!!